there's this new guy named per ("peer") jensen, and it's usually just me and him on the make table during the dinner shift. he seems to get a big kick out of my dry, sarcastic humor. i always get a kick out of people that get a kick out of me. human nature. but the problem is, his girlfriend works there, and i'm definately getting some hatred girl vibes from her. I'M SORRY. i don't want to be "that girl." *shudder* i like how every time we're all 3 working she makes sure to come over and say something random and dumb just so that i'm aware this is Her Man, and i should Watch Myself. girls are so territorial. i know, coz i used to be like her. back when i was dating a loser that worked at pizza hut.
....speaking of which, rafo stopped by PH yesterday (before my shift). i found out tonight when everybody started talking about how cool and great he is.
IF THEY KNEW....nevermind.
anyway, i got so upset i had to hide in the bathroom awhile.
but back to the new guy. apparantly we used to go to the same church. church at the crossing. i didn't have the best of experiences there....he didn't like it much either. i grew up there, and church politics ended my sojourn with CATC. (which, incidentally, IS WHAT I WAS REFERRING TO IN ONE OF MY PREVIOUS ENTRIES). the pastoral staff apparantly sat down and took a "vote" and it was unanimously decided that my mom and step-dad were no longer "welcome" in the church building. the popular kids didn't like them anymore.
per didn't find a true christian experience their either, when he attended in junior high/high school. he also went to heritage christian for high school for a couple years (before getting kicked out and then going to lawrence central.................................
then tonight while we were discovering our vast array of commonalities (okay, just the one), he mentioned that it kind of freaks him out that there's such a conglomeration of christians at pizza hut. just look at the IWU student employees -- there's me, the youth ministry major (for now, at least), nate medders (BACK TOMORROW !), laura rahke, and joe morris. then there's julia (no one apparantly seems to be able to tell the difference between us, since they always call me "julia" and her "suzin." we made nametags. "juzin" and "suzia." they didn't get the hint yet, apparantly.) Julia goes to trinity wesleyan slash the crux. adam and i visited the crux with her last week. it was a funky sunday, though, not a real service, so i dont think we got the full effect. it's also where nate goes. it's a definate possibility for a home church while i'm living in town. then there's noelle. she's worked at PH off and on for years (she goes back even before me!) as a waitress. for the past year and a half she was a youth pastor at a catholic church in ohio.
and i'm sure there's more.
so yeah. it scares per that the local pizza joint has more real christians in it than his christian high school or the church he used to attend. he says it makes him feel uncomfortable or "dirty."
per has also told me that he is against any organized religion, not just christianity. he just doesn't do that.
i wonder if its because of all the negative experiences. from what i've heard, there haven't been many christians in his life living up to the title they claimed. that makes me sad. it makes me wonder if i ever do the same. i hope not. it's depressing that SO many people are turned off of Jesus because they never really saw Him in the first place. they just saw the banners people were waving becuase it made them fashionable, or powerful, or whatever wrong reason they picked those banners up for in the first place.
why do i wave my banner?
actually, i think i'm more likely not to wave the banner. i'm holding it desperately, and i don't want to let go of it ever, but sometimes i just stop waving it. i'm afraid of becoming one of them.
current mood: contemplative
current music: rain
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