senior year

day 13
chapel was good for a summit chapel...one of those "he was so speaking to ME" things. then mere made me lunch (grilled cheese & leftover lima beans). then 3 solid hours of class...i'm so lost in biology. die die die. the others are good though. then walmart run with mere to get our camping pictures....which are AWEXOME and a HALF. SOOOOOOO many good 'uns. too great. then off to youth. the small groups...well, mine isnt so smooth. pam and i never both have the lesson plan...then the kids think the material we're covering is stupid. the jr/sr highs arent mixing very well (they bore each other)......aw jeese. then after youth i had a long and enlightening talk with pam. good days. then a long talk with fett about What Happened. i feel like we talked in circles. he wasnt understanding that i dont care WHAT decision he made, i cared about WHEN he made it. my concern was that i tried everything in my power 3 separate times to convince him i wasnt going to be there for a couple meetings, and he chose to believe that somehow i was still going to make it to the meetings. what the crap? was i lying? jeesh. then he tells me that brushing all that aside, i knew when the meetings were and all i had to do was ask off work. grrrrr. i told him a week before the meeting that EVEN THOUGH I ASKED OFF WORK i was scheduled and couldnt get out of it. jeesh again. owell. and theoretically he's going to put forth some effort to give me some future youth-pastor training. we'll see what happens. i guess if there aint a drastic improvement this semester i might start looking around. i dunno. just an idea. prayerfully considering it. yous guys can prayerfully consider it for me too, i'm down wit dat. then drove home. then watched a movie with meredith (the bachelor) which we both fell asleep during. woke up with lights on and the door open at 6:30 am. then slept some more.

day 14
woke up at 6:30 to find i'd fallen asleep during last nights movie. turned off lights and shut door and went back to bed. woke up for class (9:25 web programming). actually enjoyed what i learned....get to start a minimalistic webpage soon. subject matter? methinks "the gang" is good enough for a webpage. plus ive now got some deliciously delectable images. maybe the school's new server will even be up and running to host student webpages soon. oh my my. then back to m'house. then with mere to the SC. changed meal plan (to 275 pts, 150 meals). then wildcat and a mail check. back home to eat (mere went to class). then shower, then getting ready for next class. joe showed up 10 min before i had to leave. hurried updates and tired, angry, bitter comments dropped about the proposal that just won't happen (pastor fett asked about it last night "so, you engaged yet" "no, he wont ask. he keeps telling me stupid excuses for why it hasnt happened. if it doesnt--?" ::tears::) then to class (joe walked me there). saw john wesley's scandalous letter (he tells some girl he loves her as much as his wife, and says he's sure that the girl feels towards him the same as his wife does). took a quiz. heard wesley's bio up to aldersgate. back home to get ready for work. left for work. worked 7 hours. jeremy accused me of flirting with him. i told him why he's not my type. knowing him, he'll see that as a challenge. stupid me. called boys TH to see what kind of pizza they like. made it. closed store. left. got back. apparantly they thought katie had called to see what kind of pizza they like (what the crap?!). matt got mere's keys stuck on his window ledge after she got them stuck in the gutter. tim knocked them out. finally we realized that. went home. couldnt find cell phone. had to go to gravel lot with mere to find it in my car. it was there ::phew::. came back. started blogging.


current mood: blah
current music: crickets