hmm, maybe now you have an idea of how i feel. what with you and libbie right now.
you misunderstood what i was saying about everything being about YOU, just like it seems libbie is right now when you pretty much said the same thing to her. duh, your journal is supposed to be about your life. that's a no-brainer. but i was trying to point out that's its not just about you in your journal--that was just the most obvious example right then. just like you get sick of hearing about libbie's guys all the time, people get sick about hearing how the world owes caryn and what caryn deserves and who's screwed caryn over last. i'm not saying these things don't matter, i'm just saying that there's more to life than just that. and when that's all people hear you talk about, then they get the idea that you're a conceited carmel snob. I'M NOT SAYING YOU ARE ONE. i'm saying that's how you portray yourself when you always focus on yourself.
i wish we could mend our relationship. i wish we could put aside these differences and at least be on speaking terms, at least be family. i didn't even call to wish you happy birthday coz i've heard and seen the things you say about me, directly and indirectly. it really REALLY hurts my feelings to see that not only do you take things i have said to you in a private conversation and make them inside jokes with your friends, but you've completely taken those statements out of context and made them mean something they dont. so now libbie and whoever else thinks im some stupid idiot who couldn't talk her way out of a paper bag, when in reality you just couldn't handle what i had to say right then.
i really shouldn't care what libbie thinks. the girl with all the pills who sets fire to my bedroom furniture when i'm away at college. i honestly don't care because its her opinion, i just care because i hate to be portrayed falsely. to anyone.
current mood:
cranky
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