im writing during the day! freak out!

hello, wonderful people that read this! coz you know youre wonderful if you read this. and to those of you out there that ARENT reading this, well, you just aint wonderful. i think we've successfully established that.

i want the world to know that there are many more comments made about my journal entries, theyre just made outside the journal....like, to my face, or IM'd to me. so its ok. i just wanted yalls to realize that fact. im not such a loser as it seems usually. mleh :P

"mleh" was the noise i made as i stuck my tongue out at the world.

oh man, sometimes i hate being me to such an extent. this morning i didnt reset my alarm properly after its first beeping, and i kind of...well, i actually did sleep through concepts of health and wellness, and today was the day for the first exam. stupid stupid me! so i went and got a health center excuse (no, im not cheating, im still suffering from the effects of mono and it makes me sleep way to long). so hopefully i can retake the test. coz i dont want to have to drop this dumb class and retake it later. i've already gotten through most of the hard stuff in it....stuff like having to wear a dumb gym uniform for labs. all the rest of the labs dont require uniforms! ay caramba.

so i took some IMAGE assessment thingy in leadership on tuesday, and we got the results back. I'm a Comforter. and we aint talking about blankets, here, people. but yes, i, suzin, am THE merciful empathizer. definition: these are persons who have the inward motivation to identify with the emotions of others and to provide comfort to those who are in emotional distress. Profile: Comforters are able to feel joy or distress in an individual or group. They have strong empathy for people who are in distress, desiring to remove hurts and bring healing. They are more concerned with emotional distress than physical distress (thats why i laugh at tim for breaking his arm during frisbee, and i laughed at weasel when the shelves fell on him in bowman last year). They usually avoid firmness unless they clearly see how it will benefit a situation. They decidedly avoid words or actions that will hurt others. They have a strong sense of the level of sincerity in others and tend to close their spirits to those who are insincere and insensitive.

and baby is that true like none other. i'm all about "being real." in youth in high school, we did alot of studies and stuff that had the final lesson that we should "be real." finding fakeness in a person drives me nuts. i cant stand to be around them, and if one part of their life is fake, then its hard for me to separate that from the rest of their lives and not question how far the lies extend. its also hard for me to hide my true feelings, even when theyre going to cause conflict or hurt someone else. i dont like to pretend. i'd rather confront the person about how i'm feeling than just let things slide. in my experience, letting things slide just makes things worse. thats when i explode and go over the deep end yelling and telling someone off (yep, that blessed irish temper!). confronting them usually takes the explosion out of the situation and gives me a chance to talk to the person rationally and calmly, a chance to share my feelings and emotions with them without exaggerating them too much.

well that was fun. now yall know suzin and how she ticks a bit better.

aw jeese and a half, tomorrow is calibretto 13! oh man oh man. i'm already planning what im going to wear. you cant just go to a C13 concert without thinking ahead, people. these things require thought and careful examination of the situation. last time i didnt think very clearly (well, it WAS the first C13 concert i'd ever been to) and i was one of the two preppiest people there, and not in an okay-punk-guy's-girlfriend kind of way. it was just sickening. so this time i'm going to be more careful. yay for me.

i have the power of dvd behind me.

in the words of a great blonde girl "...'s'later!"

current mood: okay
current music: suitemates yelling next door