i've been doing some thinking and considering lately concerning various relationships...
i think i'm rather dissatisfied.
it turns out there are people i thought i knew extremely well and i barely knew anything about them. i don't like it when i'm real, honest, and vulnerable to a person and i later find out that it wasn't reciprocated. i feel like i've let them into my "inner sanctuary" and i thought i was let in theirs, but it turns out i'm barely even standing in the entrance to the temple. (is this making sense? too many analogies? sorry.) i'm shut out. it's private, and while i'm almost certain others are let in, i guess i'm just not good enough.
i'm slightly frustrated, mostly just saddened. and i really don't feel like doing anything about it. i dunno. i kind of think it wouldn't be worth it.
this is what it's like in the shadows.
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