senior year

day 37, saturday
uhhhh, weekends rule. i slept wicked late. did some homework that's due really really soon. watched some movies. stuff

day 38, sunday
didnt go to HCWC this morning, decided to sleep in instead. went to brookhaven with christy (mere was on her way back from PA). really enjoyed brookhaven even though it was nothing especially spectacular. am having an internal civil war over church situation: stay at HCWC where i'm put to good use in a christian sense as an adult staff member in the youth group and where i have a sort of ministry established and at least a couple kids would miss me, or switch back to brookhaven where all my friends attend and i get spiritually fed at a much higher level, and where i feel more cared about? it's a real dilemma. i'm starting to think HCWC is poisoning me just because one or both pastors has views i dont share and the church--well, the youth group seems too focused on the bad and not focused enough on the good. and when we acknowledge the good its not, "yay for God" its more "i'm saying this because according to Christian culture i'm supposed to." and i hate that. plus, i'm not learning anything applicable. i've learned all there is to learn from there. but if i switched to brookhaven i'm not sure i'd get involved. and i feel like its late in the game for me to switch. and i'm not sure if the youth pastor there is a big improvement. i could be wrong, i've never really given the guy a chance. but natural human instinct says it would be more of the same.

i put a lot of trust in my "gut reactions," my weird feelings, and natural human instinct. maybe i shouldn't.

day 39, monday
spent a lot of time working on the massive Pentateuch project that's due wednesday. getting nervous about it.

day 40, tuesday
spent literally ALL DAY working on pentateuch. took one or two study breaks -- one for dolla breadstix at circle k with mere and joe. apparantly everyone else ditched the weekly stix and no one told us. i thought it was a regular thing, but i guess i was wrong. i guess the townhouse boys went to wendys for 1979 prices, but i didnt hear that it was any funner. *sigh*

day 41, wednesday
rainy day. but i like them just as much as i like sunny days. i take what God gives me. i can find beauty in just about anything. what's that? roadkill? well you got to admit its colorful.

big pentateuch project due today (i finished it!) and then a big test as well (is that fair?! NO. wilbur has a mean streak). the test didnt go so well, coz he asks the most obscure questions over things you didnt think were really important because he just glossed over them like they werent required knowledge.....ug. i did poorly to say the least.

then youth group, and i had to pull over 4 or 5 times on the way down coz my windshield wiper kept almost falling off and id stop in gas stations to fix it and then 5 min later it would suck again.....finally i figured out what was wrong. on my own. the oil change guy that installed it put it on wrong. i had to take the clippy thing all the way around back and reinstall it that way. duh. and it works beautifully now! all by myself! i'm so independant! though a little bummed i cant ask jeremy to fix it again. owell. i get over these things rather easily.

day 42, thursday
blah blah blah, work. HOLY CRAP. i get there just as jeremy was leaving for the day (sadness!). then i talk to the roos twins and they said jeremy gave his two weeks notice! oh crap! AND he told them he wanted to ask out laura rahke. HAHAHAHAH! that is funny. though not entirely surprising. based on his attitudes and actions i would guess that out of all the pizza hut girls there would be one of two he'd have "secret feelings" towards -- laura, or me. and since he flirts with me more and has more serious conversations where he "opens up" with me more often (yes, we all compare notes so i know) i wouldve thout maybe me, even with the boyfriend-factor. i guess the boyfriend-factor overcame. but i dont feel like this situation is finished, i think its still in the thick developing stages. but yeah. big news that way. then jeremy showed up around closing time to check the schedule (cha.....right......as one who's used this before, its just a show. he wanted to stop in for a diff reason, though i dont know what). then he mentioned the laura thing to me, i laughed at him. then i got serious and told him i didnt think it would happen. same thing medders and the roos's told 'im. he said something about just wanting to ask her out to ask her out....i dunno. it was an almost awkward situation. but not too bad. then i closed with curtis. IT WAS SO MUCH EASIER THAN WITH JEREMY. mainly because i think morning people dont like jeremy and complain to michael about anything they possibly can about the way we close, so we have to do twice as much work--sweeping and mopping and wiping things--stuff they do again in the morning. so its pointless. grrrr. but curtis was like "yeah, thats gay. dont do that. the morning people are supposed to." so it went much faster.

then home to deliver pizza to the quad and townhouse boys.

day 43, friday
sorry folks. this day deserves its OWN entry. but not yet. i'm too tired right now. coming soon!


current mood: tired