senior year

day 26, tuesday
uh. dont remember this day very much. i guess nothing too exciting happened. it was a tuesday. doesn't the word "tuesday" make you think of the color blue? maybe some purple in there? whenever i imagine the word "tuesday" its in a blue or violet hue. yep, that's tuesday.

day 27, wednesday
skipped chapel. OF COURSE. duh. no, i regretted it. next week, baby, next week. went to classes. headed straight for food after class coz i hadnt eaten and it was 3:15 and ended up talking to katie wright in the student center for an hour or more -- it was great! got a lot off my mind and it was great to bounce things off her and hear that i'm not a horrible evil person for feeling certain ways about certain things, and then to hear that someone agrees with me. AWESOME. i love you katie! then i saw dignal in the SGO office and went and bothered her a tad. offered indignation and consolance over her stupid metro cabinet member problems. CL is a gimpy metro and i'm taking him down. not really. but maybe. then off to youth group. more dumb wannabe fear factor games that most people ignore. pam and i didnt really have a group and then the very last second brittany thornburg redefected back into our group and we also had chase (a jr. high boy from last year--wicked hyperactive) and surprisingly enough it was an awesome mix. stuff got through to them and they totally opened up. AWESOME. after youth went to joes for some sketti and csi and then took jordans socks back. he made me come all the way to hodson. loser.

day 28, thursday
didnt go to classes....sleeping pill was working overtime today. i suck as a person. owell. did make it to work (fishers PH). closed with jeremy. always fun in some way or other. he's talking of quitting. i hope he doesnt. that would be sad and a lot less interesting. some corporate guy showed up today to evaluate us. he basically stood around and stared at us a lot and then got in the way some. at one point he was standing behind a register taking people's tickets to be rung up and so naturally JD thought he was pitching in....apparantly he wasnt. he just stood there holding tickets waiting for JD to ring them up. he stood behind me for about 10 minutes, jeremy says he swears he was just staring at my butt the whole time. crazy. yuck. YUCK. sick. every now and then he'd ask a question like "is that a bottle of degreaser?" which meant points lost, i guess. but after he was done staring at people he told john roos and i that we did a good job, our technique was fine, the only problems were stuff we couldnt control. we got shiny new pins to prove our expertise. heavenly.

day 29, friday
skipped chapel AND classes just because i needed to for my emotional well being. IKNOWISUCK so shove it. yeah. worked coz i'm nice to thems like that...it actually was the best friday i've ever worked. everything went incredibly smooth. it rocked. i even got off a little early coz people came to visit me!!! dignal, baka (paul of grace college--one of dignals' camp buddies), amy jo, and chris chopp showed up. their swing dance place was closed so they chose pizza. they made me wear my "your mom" nametag and then i called caryn and she came to fetch her bday gift (an iwu shirt--the gray w/ pink writing girly cut one) and to be dramatic in public for my friends' entertainment. no tap shoes, though. she did throw out the drag queen voice, some cockney, the ice age squirrel face, as well as other classics. it was exciting. then we all went home. joe, jordan, and josiah stopped by to hang. josiah left. ..........yeah. so anyways. then joe and jordan played lots of super nintendo. they lost alot. it was sad. i whipped out the record player and popped on some "good vibrations." it was good.

day 30, saturday
today SUCKED BEANS. and a HALF. first of all i thought i had lunch plans with joe and other people but it turns out he thought they were extremely flexible and probably not happening. so i got tired of waiting and called. chris fett (LFF) answered the phone and apparantly made some crap up about joe not wanting to do anything and being busy...sounded ambiguous to me but i thought at least he'd tell joe i called. NOPE. so i go to lunch with meredith slightly t.o.'d as it was. in come the guys. joe completely ignores me (he says he didnt see me. i guess he gets the b.o.t.d. (benefit of the doubt)(that totally just obliterated the point of the original abbreviation, eh)) joe ignores me for 20 minutes (or so i'm thinking) and i get up to leave with meredith finally. i guess as we were walking away chris turned to joe and said something like "oh....yeah......so she probably hates your guts right now and you're probably in big trouble, coz she like called a couple hours ago for lunch and i told her you werent interested or whatever." what the crap??!! i think someone needs a good ol' intervention, if youre now not only screwing up your own life but starting in on other peoples as well. GOSH.

go ahead, post evil comments about how i'm unfit as a christian and deserve hell and need to switch my major to something that doesnt involve ministry coz i'm totally irresponsible as a person blah blah blah. MAKE MY DAY. i'll just sit here and LAUGH at you. i already am, even. ha. hahaha. HA. *snort*





.....and then i went to work (mad at joe, but for reasons much bigger and more important than just he didnt say hi to me and ditched me for freshmen guys). HORRIBLE. we were totally understaffed and it was HSE's homecoming so things were evil. we were so busy and i was forced to cover 3 different positions during a rush (middle make, head make, and roll). impossible. jeremy was actually quite helpful but michael (the gay manager) kept ganking him up to register even though michael himself or al had a lot less to do. michael also did some stupid switching around of positions with robby and jon wiltshire, which resulted in both make and specials slowing wAAAAy down so finally jeremy was just like no, switch back, screw what he said he's dumb. so they did. and it was better. michael nagged alot too. i was seriously afraid at many points that jeremy was just going to walk out and leave. we made elaborate plans that would get the entire staff to walk out, and talked about how cool/funny that would be. but we felt sorry for al who wouldnt be allowed to close the store with no employees or he'd get fired. poor al. needless to say, the mutiny never happened. but after the rush jeremy and michael went out back (oh, yes, they "went out back." dont those words sound scary?) and jeremy told michael what for. so jeremy still works at PH for the time being at least and michael knows what needs worked on. hopefully things will change. jeremy's cool. usually.

then i came home and had a big reality check for joe waiting. i said what i've been saying only a lot more vehemently and more detailed so as to avoid confusion and misunderstandings, which happen a lot with him. so things better be changing. hot diggity they better change............they better change. let's just leave it at that, ok folks?

and for all the dumb guys reading this thinking bad stuff about me as a person -- NO, i'm not pms'ing or just a witchy manipulative girlfriend. ask joe. he wouldnt lie. at least i hope. there's problems that need fixin, and its just been put off wAAAAAAAAAAy too long til theyre almost past hope.


current mood: drained