so caryn's at it again, postin crap about me in her online journal. some junk about adam and i always ganging up on her when we were little, and how we were best friends coz we hated her together, and dad always told her to "kill us with kindness". RIGHT. if i can think that far back....(i am old, you know, 21 and all)....
seems to me when we were small, adam and i hated each other. he liked caryn well enough as long as no one else was around. whenever someone else was there to see, he hated her too. i just didnt care for either of them. i was the nerdy one who always wanted to sit around and read something. it wasnt even until about the time adam started high school (he was a frosh, i was a senior) that i started to get along well with him. and that wasn't necessarily about hating caryn...more like it was about how we liked the same music, the same stuff, etc. i got along well with his friends at school and he got along well with mine. heck, we even at lunch together!
i also recall that adam and caryn were often referred to as "the twins" when we were small. maybe not to them, but i overheard mom and other adults all the time, and they would be talking about how close in age they were, how great they got along, how much fun they had together. it was never about how great suzin and adam got along....always about how great caryn and adam got along. though i would like to tack on that it only lasted as long as it was just the three of us, and no outside friends.
yes, it's always been hard for me to get along with my sister. let's face it....she's the epitome of the word "bitch." when we were younger i didn't like her because she tried to steal attention from my friends, by acting like a baby or whatever. about four to eight years ago it was because she was so tempermental, because she never gave us a chance to get a long with her, because when we THOUGHT we were getting along with her, out of no where she'd explode and get engraged and run off to slam her door and hide for a few hours. i still dont know the reason she got mad for about 75% of those times (and they happened probably every other day, at least).
i always wanted to get along with her...she just made that impossible. it got so bad that when she was being nice and easy-going, i'd always be on the look out for something to go wrong. and usually something would.
ok i'm done trying to explain why caryn and i dont and wont get along. too much effort for something so stupid.
i'm going to go sit around feeling snotty (coz im SICK) in front of the telly.
current mood:
pissed off
current music: the vent in our bathroom